To feel really alive is a tremendously intense sensation : your cells are jumping, your heart beats fast, your mind seems to agree with all, you feel -- safe and joyful and fulfilled. The body seems to say "We want more!"

Sometimes you are in a place you know so well, you have been there before yet now it feels profoundly diffferent. 

I understand now more clearly how the spiritual scene triggers me at times — it is not the crystals or the incense anymore. It goes way deeper. It is the lack of commitment to be active on the higher levels ànd at the same time be engaged in planetary change. It is IN the world that the work needs to be done.

Sometimes they tell me — Ilse, you are wanting it too much. And my first reaction is to get angry! Why can we not passionately want something?.. And then I feel again what this is really about: Desire, embracing deep longing. There is a world of difference between ‘wanting‘ and ‘longing for’. Your heart gets involved when you long for something. Even more, you make contact with your Soul’s intention, your Core, who you really are. You make deep contact.

Are you normal?

I often get the question in my professional practice, “Am I actually normal?” And then I answer immediately, “Thank God no!”